Ashton ~ age 10

I am learning…. wow…. am I ever learning! I seem to have new eyes and new ears. Not to see the same way I’ve been seeing or hear the same way I’ve been hearing like all human bodies see and hear.  It’s different. I’m learning to see and hear with my heart. I see and hear more in an eternal perspective. It’s hard for me to describe but I will try…

What started these thoughts is a song. Music speaks to me sometimes in ways that nothing else can. I heard this song last month but it did not resonate like it did last week when I heard it again. Maybe my heart was ready this time.

It’s called, “If I Listen With My Heart” by Sally DeFord. It’s written from a child’s perspective.

This song put words to what has been happening with me since Ashton died. I have needed to feel near to my heavenly home. I have really needed that. I believe my heart still knows and remembers what it feels like in my heavenly home. It is a HUGE comfort for me to realize that. I don’t know how it works, but I feel that I still have a part of that heavenly home in my heart.

The chorus of this song also makes me think of listening for truth. Really, that’s how we have to listen for truth and for the Holy Spirit…with our heart, not our head or ears. That’s how we really ‘hear’!

The hope I feel that I will see Ashton again and that he is safe and happy comes from God through my heart.  My heart is not just an organ that is vital to my earthly existence. It is the part of me that helps me feel when something is right and good and helps me know when I hear truth. It helps me know that I can make it through this life if I let God guide me… His way.

I just have to listen with my heart to hear Him.